I Am…
The easy thing is to not…
“If you told me it would be THIS hard to believe I would say YES to HIM 10,000 times again.”
There is this idea that some of us that go towards the cross and believe in Jesus are simply hiding. I strongly disagree. If we look at the persecution and the amount of Christians that were taken out because of a simple belief and faith we must be able to go deep within that thought process.
Since I've accepted the Lord Jesus in my life it hasn't gotten easier. What it has gotten is deeper. The moments that I get to sit and speak with others and to have relationships with them have become deeper and stronger. My life has become more interesting. What do I mean by that? Well.....
Decisions become harder that's for sure yet EASIER at the same time. We're supposed to love God and love our neighbors. And I can tell you both of those sometimes are really hard. Why? Well... God is....God. While our neighbors are.... Human and I am Human. It gets really messy.
If you can't see that I'm being honest and vulnerable and authentic here.... That's a problem. I can tell you this.... I'm working a lot at being the best man that I could be all while knowing that I'm going to be nowhere near perfect. Actually I'm going to be more imperfect than perfect yet society will expect some form of perfection.
Sounds pretty simple. Sure just believe in God. All will be better. That's the truth. It didn't say easier.
What I can say is? I've learned to love life. HE taught me that. Most certainly not the life that most believe to love but more the life of what we call Eternal Legacy. For now I'm going to continue on the road and the path that I'm on and thank the Lord that I will be forgiven. For I am.
The path that I'm on means stripping away all the things that I was once holding so tight. That includes anger, hate, aggression, addictions, comfortability, possessions, worldly ideas, fear, and all the things that I gathered and built around me, to allow me to have an identity of this world. Wait a second... the path that I'm on is having me strip away all the things that gave me my identity?
Yes sir. Yes ma'am. All of them. I've removed myself from so much. From so many. I'm in the process of building myself back up for a life of SERVICE.
Lanie and Malia: if I've shown you anything I've shown you that I am just a man.
